Dear Diary, seems more accurate--
I find myself here, in 2025, trying to keep pushing the boulder.
I'm at a junction of sorts, perhaps arbitrarily as it seems I might have already passed the threshold of deciding. While my practice has been put aside, I find myself stepping into the role of a different type of maker, a builder, a contractor perhaps, a diy-er definitely.
This cabin, this fancy pants tent, has become the project on my horizon, I'm already knee deep in it. December was a month of everything that could go wrong, going wrong, and gratitude for all the hands that helped me right it. Having a prop to keep my head above water, and an extra pair of hands to run the water gauntlet with, has made me more capable and tired. I can finally unclench. Now, how to keep momentum and vigor while being so gentle, that is the next question.
TO DO as of 1/3/25
1. pick up the heater from lowes
2. install floor outlets
3. install flooring
4. figure out how to get the stain out of the wall
5. figure out if i even want to live in this house
6. plan for a well?
7. build out storage space, and drawers and shelves
8. bring car in for service
9. electrician
10. grad school...?
Yours with a dream of a pole barn studio, a sauna, a brick oven, a garden, a fire pit. Is it just a dream to be content and enriched and viable in a place like this?
Elise
